Getting ready

My sisters and mom gave me a wonderful shower today and am blessed with dear friends! Was fun to get some things for Caleb. Just wish he could hurry home!
With Austin I was anxious for him to come and to find out what he was, to be a mom for the first time. With Naomi I just wanted the pregnancy over, for her to be healthy and my me to be able to eat again. This time my heart aches with longing for this child that is "officially" mine, but still is on the other side of the world. We have "had" Caleb for 6 mos. now and I thought he would be home by now. I know God is reigning and can move mountains. Its just so hard to wait. Our A5 (paperwork from US consulate in China) could be approved any day or it could be a few more weeks. Then our travel approval could be very soon after our A5 or could be 8 weeks. Please pray that it would come quickly and that God would give me supernatural peace as I know I am already beginning to feel stressed with the waiting. Pray for me to be patient and loving with my kids, to enjoy this time with them, to continue to get ready for Caleb and concentrate on schoolwork. Caleb will be 22 mos. on Tuesday. Please pray that we get him before his birthday!!!

When?

I know God is still working and still in control, still on His throne! But it feels like its been quiet lately. The last few weeks I've even felt kind of "distanced" from this whole process. Just trying not to get my hopes up I guess.
The last bit of our paperwork went to China last Friday our SW told us today. She said it could take 3-4 weeks for it to get back to the adoption agency in China. I thought it would only be a couple of weeks. So April may not even be possible now! AGH! He turns 2 on May 1st. Was so sure we would be holding him and would even be home with him before then, now we don't know. My heart is heavy...
But I need to keep focusing on what is in front of me, right now...